Exploring feelings with fine art portrait photography. What does it feel like to live in the open? Free from all the incessant thinking. The burden of judgement that is often times our own. What does that feel like, to live above the hazy line of self-doubt, shame, and fear?
I often wonder how it would be, to truly live in this space, and if it is actually possible. Is this what makes the happy ones, the brave ones? Do they obtain some sense of self, some existence, that makes them free of these ordinary faults.
I doubt it. We are all here, the same. Only most of us hide from our fears. Cope with the sufferings of life with comforting habits and white lies. It is only when we start exploring our true selves and question our habits, that we can rise above ourselves. Closer to the dream of true happiness.
This is why it was so refreshing to meet Kelly. Seeing her live by her social name Follow Fear Find Beauty is in a word. Inspiring. When we met for this photo shoot it was for much more than getting an image. There wasn’t even really a concept. I would call it more of a drive, a feeling, a… purpose.
We were to meet at a waterfall. She was ready to throw herself into a new fear. To turn another “I could never do that”, into something she most certainly could, and would, and by damn, did do.
She had seen photos of beautiful women in waterfalls before. Who hasn’t. But she never felt like she could be one of them. Until she realized that the only reason for that… was her own limiting mindset.
Time to conquer some fears.
It’s About Showing Up For Yourself
Thats what she would say. It isn’t about doing these things when you’re skinny enough, or when you’re not so busy, more likely, not so afraid. The time is right now. Fear will always be there. So no matter what fear it is you are letting hold you back right now, pack it up and bring it along with you. Just show up.
“You will meet many a person in your time that will come face to face with your flaws, trust the chaos
pain & confusion is the pathway to break open and become free.”Nikki Rowe
And so here we were. Just two women excited to play in a waterfall and create something beautiful.
With nothing but a Coconut Hat, bought from some sleepy local Hawaiians lazing in a hut and some flowers that were found on the side of the road, we shot with one shared purpose in mind.
To push ourselves to do and be the women we wanted to be… no matter the women we thought we were. Or who saw. Because even swarmed with onlookers we pushed on.
Funny how easy it is. Being comfortable in your natural state. When you stop judging yourself. When you stop comparing or obsessing about the outcome. This is where you become the brave one. This is where your authentic self comes out from the dark.
“What if each time you experienced an emotion, you acknowledged it, accepted it, and became curious about its message for you (instead of trying to make it go away or make it last longer)? Imagine how this could change your life.”Vironika Tugaleva
Imagine To Truly See Yourself
The more we shot, the more vulnerabilities that came to surface.
Why is it we are scared to show these true pieces of ourselves. And Why do we want to only share our achievements without the story?
We are always looking for the better option, the perfect outcome, the next change.
Is it not the journey to obtain these things that we actually connect with? Do we not all share these things. Struggle. Pain. Vulnerability. The need to be Seen. Truly, for who we are, and who we have been. To be accepted in our flawed selves.
This right here is where my chest expands. This is where I got what I came to get. To capture A human experience. One I am most connected to right now.
Vulnerability and the Struggle to See and Accept oneself.
And To Be Seen.
I hope you feel a little raw when you see these images. I hope you understood a bit of my heart after you read my feelings. I am pushing myself more to let my photography be seen. To let myself be seen. And to find the intersecting line that keeps this my passion.
Every shoot with Kelly turns into Fine Art Portrait Photography. This is what happens when you surround yourself with the right energy. Want to see our first encounter? Read Follow Fear Find Beauty | Adventure Within
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